In need of prayer!

This semester has been incredibly difficult for me. I’m not really sure who I am, this may sound cliche but i’m still trying to find my self, spiritually, in my relationships, and in my everyday life. I think If I list my issues I will know how to deal with them (take them one step at a time). I don’t want to live a negative life, where I’m constantly worried about what my next step is. I want to live in the present not always in the future.

Things that are stressing me out:

1. Gilbert leaving, and graduating—>  I’m not sure how I will deal with this, maybe with a lot prayer, and distractions, keeping busy is the most important.

2. Jobs next year—> Its that time of my college years when I really need to be giving my resume some boost, and putting my skills into good use.

3. Family Life–> I cannot wait to see my mom. I sort of feel guilty and sadden by the fact that I left home for college. I’m not sure if that is normal but I wish she lived here with me.

4. Graduation Date? December 2013? May 2013? who knows -_-

On a happy note!

1. French maccarons—> can be found here 

2. a new macbook

3. Homemade Gifts, letters, cookies, lemonade, granola, tea, chalk board.

4. Orchids, or any plant on a pot!

5. Lots of hugs and kisses

Instagram Pictures of the week!

I decided to be crafty and fix my sermon journal!

Gleor (Gilbert’s car) got hurt. ): –> but fixed!

I painted!

First envelope with both of our names!

Got an awesome surprise! (:

So excited for my friend’s wedding! –> MAY 7!

I decided to bake mini cupcakes!

Happy Sabbath to all!

Pierson Dr.

Elephant Tracks! ^^^^^

Spring was never really my favorite season until I really started to enjoy it. ( I’m not sure if that makes sense grammatically) I’m not a fan of bugs, but I have really started to go outside and take in the vitamin D that i’m deprived of during my school year in TN . It has been great going outside and just enjoying these warm days that are perfect for the beach.

My weekend was rather eventful. I had crazy mood swings as always, honestly I give it to my loved ones who put up with me. Specially my sister, my boyfriend and my roommate (God bless their souls) sometimes I just get randomly weird. Any who yeah it was a rather eventful weekend.

Saturday

Saturday was a not so restful day! I was pretty cranky from staying up cooking Nicaraguan beans for like 4 hours okay I’m exaggerating it was like 2 and a half, but then the next day I cooked them for 2 more hours I’m just a failure at Nicaraguan cooking (hopefully that will change this summer) . Then I hung out with Depeah, and Jordan Sager fun, fun, fun, but the climax of the night was watching Gilbert (the bf) perform for the talent show. It was really  really fun.

Saturday I learned two lessons: soak beans overnight, and somethings are not worth being mad about (or confronting people about) 

Sunday

My sophomore year of high school I got into a really bad car accident and I had to wear a neck brace and all that fun stuff. Long story short I never had the desire to get my license. I’m at a point in my life where I just have to get it, it’s a need so I have been practicing every chance I get around college dale! Watch out drivers because jackie is a hazard to the road!  I set my first long distance drive from the Village Market to Sarah’s house taking the back roads (University Dr/ Standifer Gap). It was so exhilarating, there weren’t any shoulders on the road so I had to stay on the center that’s really difficult for me to do because I’m just a crazy driver. I almost hit a light post but I made it out alive! When cars came on the other lane I would panic a bit, but in the end I conquered my fear of driving. I will get my license this summer. It is sad to say that my younger sister got hers before me. I’m driven to achieve this!

After the drive we did some shopping at Dillards (not a fan) but I got all these shoes for a total of $68! I’m a happy gal!

I will wear these for my 21 birthday ^^^

These are so comfy! ^^^^

I love boots ^^^^ Next winter!

Birthdays and such

Yesterday it was my little brothers birthday, I am so amazed that he is 5 years old. I remember when I found out my stepmom was pregnant I wasn’t as happy as most people would react to a pregnancy. My dad and I have a very complex relationship. Don’t get me wrong I love him, and I love my stepmom, but it just wasn’t the right time. Little did I know that God had a different plan for our family. This baby united all of my family into this big loving web! My mom loves and cares for my brother as her own. Since the Thomas the Train show was sold out we had to improvise a party, my mom and I rushed to party city to get somethings my stepmom said she needed. In the end the party was a success, my little brother was too cool to take pictures with his old crazy sisters, but it was a good night.

Later, I went to my cousins new apartment at the gables, it’s so cute a cozy. It made me think of how crazy it will be when I really move out. I’m not ready, I’m not sure if I will ever be. Then we got to discussing my 21 birthday. I’m a simple girl, I don’t feel comfortable going to a club that’s not my idea of fun. I want a small “kosher” gathering maybe just wine. (I don’t even like alcohol, it’s pretty gross) so maybe not i don’t know. I will just plan it. Nothing crazy, let’s just say i have this very strong HATE relationship with drinking. It’s a home-wrecker, but that’s another story for another day. I’m okay with the simple things for my birthday.

Oh yes, since I am sharing about my 21 potential birthday party on Saturday night we went out to this lounge, let’s just say I wasn’t properly dressed, I don’t drink and I didn’t really know what a lounge meant, (where people go out to drink, and food is too expensive for a broke college student like myself)

I’m glad to be home. Now on my way to Orlando Au revoir ! (:

Mother Daughter Bonding

I love coming home! Last night I was greeted by hugs and kisses, and a foot massage. I wish my roommate gave me foot massages, I doubt that’s ever going to happen.(definitely a requirement for my future husband) Feet massages are a must! I can tell my mom loves having us home, I mean what mother wouldn’t my sister and I are so fun and lively. My goal this break is to try new things,and say yes to more. I’m excited to spend time with my family and Gilbert’s family. My little brother is turning 5 on Sunday! ); he’s growing up so fast! I can’t wait to see him. Follow my blog this break, I will update more on my exciting adventures! (;